Really not that bad. I mean, it could be worse. I’m at 162, and I kind of just want to fast until 159. But at the same time I feel like fruit will get me there faster? I don’t know. But judging by my cramps and the amount of laxatives I took last night, I’m going to be leaving a lot of last night’s binge behind today. TMI?

I want to be a completely different person coming back to school after this week long break. Last time I did fruit I lost 12 pounds in 10 days, what if people who hadn’t seen me in over a week see 153-155 pound me? This break is meant to get a lot of my weight loss done in a short period of time. I need to start working out. And stop messing up like fucking yesterday. It started with a salad! A salad!! A ~100 calorie salad. And I was off. Ugh. Working out today would probably do me some good. Maybe I’ll do what I failed to do last time and just start from scratch tomorrow. I’ll fast today, and whatever weight I see tomorrow will be my new starting weight for which I’ll finish off the 7 days I started with.

I took a lot of laxatives. But I want to work out tomorrow and fast. I can’t do this! I don’t have the time!

I’m sorry I haven’t been on in a while, it looks as though my queue ran out too. My computer has been broken for about a week and a half now, and I hate using the app on my phone, so I apologize for the lack of posts.

An update regarding my weight loss:
I’m down to 160.8! As it turned out, I started gaining weight, eating whatever I wanted. The highest weight I saw was around 168, but then it started going down for some reason, where I sort of maintained at 165. That’s where I was when I started fruit again. I’ve devised an almost fool proof month-long plan for my prom diet, and if I stick to it, I know I’ll look amazing! I got my dress in the mail. It fits, but there’s so much room for improvement. Even if I can only get down to the high 140s, which is where I was for last year’s prom, it’s going to look a lot better! I only know this because last year’s prom dress doesn’t even fit anymore :/ so if I get down to the weight I was when that dress DID fit, then a dress that already fits at this weight can only get looser and more flattering!!

I do believe I need to work out today. I started the fruit just a couple days ago and have already seen great results, but hitting a plateau is just not ideal since I’m attempting to lose a pound a day. I’m combining the fruit with fasts and ABC later on in the month, I’m actually excited to challenge myself considering I don’t really have a choice at this point but to lose weight. I have a deadline and it’s pretty close, May 11th doesn’t give me much time to drop a dress size or two. My first goal weight is still 149 though!! I’ve got my post its on the mirror waited to get torn off!